I am taking a leap of faith and following my instincts.
Like a five year old child, unable to sleep, knowing that there will be presents under the Christmas tree in the morning. Like the scent of rain on the wind, long before the forecast was checked or a dark cloud seen. Like the moment just before your lips touch your lover’s for the first time, locking in a passionate kiss. Yes, just like that, I can feel something good is coming.
For most of my life, I have trusted my logical mind. When push came to shove and important choices needed to be made, logic won over emotions and feelings almost every time. This type of thinking kept me safe and secure, but did not do a wonderful job of making me feel happy and satisfied. I was still longing for more, without really knowing what more I was looking for. Over the past few years I have tried to find a better balance of following my mind, my heart and instinct. Not surprisingly, the main thing holding me back was fear. Fear of change. Fear of rejection. Fear of being judged. Fear of failing.
Thankfully I realized the fear holding me back could only be released by me. After all, it was placed there by me, so it was going to be up to me to figure it all out. That kind of work must be done within. As much as I love the idea of throwing money at the situation to fix it or using a Band-Aid to cover it up, no dollar amount or bandage can fix the fear – it can only be released by the owner and operator, Yours Truly.
Right now I am in a really good place. This past year I have been picking up speed like a snowball turning into an avalanche (just ask my friends). I am releasing my past. Confronting my demons. Facing my fears. Taking on challenges. Falling down, dusting off, and trying again! Listening to my body. Quieting my mind. Following my spiritual light. I am learning to trust (and rely on) my feelings and emotions more than my logical mind. This is huge for me.
So here we are on this journey. And I do not say we just to engage you, dear reader. I say it because we are all on a journey together right now – this is part of the change I feel. Recently, I have seen strangers becoming kinder and more patient. I have watched close friends and family become more open and vulnerable. I have witnessed physical, mental and spiritual transformations result from the simple thought of wanting a better life. These changes are not a result of a longing for more money or fame. These changes are happening because we as humans are awakening to an inner desire to become the truest and best version of our self – whatever that may be. We are trying.
“For those of you who don’t know, December 21st 2012 is regarded as the end of a 5,125-year-long cycle in the Mesoamerican Long Count calendar otherwise known as the Mayan Calendar. New age interpretation of this date is that it marks the start of a time in which Earth and its inhabitants will undergo a positive physical or spiritual transformation, and that it may mark the beginning of a new era (Note: Various astronomical alignments and numerological formulae have pointed to this date though it’s still debatable).” – The Lotus Effect.
I am taking a leap of faith and following my instincts. Something good is coming.
All I know for sure, is that it is my job to prepare for it. Not the typical preparedness that involves formal education or purchasing emergency goods, but rather internal preparedness. I have never been this focused or passionate about caring for my mind, body and soul and helping others around me. I know with every fiber of my being, that now is a time to feed my body nutrient rich food, sleep well, exercise and purify my body of toxins. That now is a time to quiet my mind and be open to new possibilities. Now is a time to be patient, forgiving and speak with more love than ever before.
Yes, just like that, I can feel something good is coming.
What have you been experiencing? Any tips, advice or ideas to share? Please, all thoughts are welcome. We are in this together.